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Muse Playground - May Prompt

May 3rd, 2007 (11:18 pm)

"Sometimes loves a loaded gun and it shoots to kill"

- Alice Cooper Love's a Loaded Gun


Love hits you when you are least expecting it. Sometimes it lingers when you know it's wrong. Like when the person you love meets someone and falls in love with them. When they get married and are happy. When they are grieving. It's wrong to wonder what it would be like when you hold them close, or when you kiss their lips.

When they are your best friend as well and have moved on with someone else. You should feel happy for them and not play out the what ifs in your mind.

Though can you really help how you feel for someone? Once that gun cocks and fires you are a goner. And that gun my friends is always loaded and ready to go. Maybe someday that person will see and feel the same. All you can do is be there for them no matter what they need. Be a friend because that's what things started as.


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67. for muse_playground

March 18th, 2007 (08:02 pm)

I heard the road, it was calling my name
I walked towards the light and I ran towards the flame
I ran towards the flame



My time in the beginning was always torn. Torn between two things I loved, medicine and music. When my band got it's big break I had to make the hard decision to follow that dream or stay at County. I wanted it all, and I went to Doctor Weaver and nearly, no literally begged to be able to go. It nearly broke my heart when she first said no, it hurt. I was afraid i'd miss my chance. When she finally relented I was overjoyed.


I couldn't wait to go tell my band mates I could go. It was them that broke my heart completely. All the waiting, all the working so hard for it and they took it away from me. All because I spent a lot of time at a job I loved. Because I was saving people's lives. They asked me once why I bothered with medicine.

The answer was simple. The road called out to me, music teased me to follow it, but I knew that soon the road would forget me and call out to another. Someone younger and hipper. I loved helping people, and I still do. I'm good at it and I have no regrets.


I hear my band fell through and broke apart. That their time was short lived and they were left with nothing to fall back on. Music was my life but I had my secret life as well. It's the one that I do now.

Any regrets I could have ever had fade when I can save someone. Especially the kids, I love kids. I still check in on the kids me and Gates found, even if he doesn't like he promised.


That and I'd really hate to leave Neela. What can I say I love her. But that's just left for another time.


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We just won't go there. Okay. Done.

December 16th, 2006 (03:07 am)

Letter to SantaCollapse )

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Holiday meme of lurve!

December 15th, 2006 (09:31 pm)

Give me some love at the Holiday meme of lurve. I needs some?

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Cabin Fever.

December 15th, 2006 (04:17 pm)

I hate being locked up for too long, it's just something I can't handle. I cannot stay indoors for long periods of time. Maybe I'm a bit claustrophobic but if I'm inside too long I just feel unable to breathe. The walls seem to just be caving in on me and the room is getting smaller. So when I feel like that I'll go out on the balcony, or I'll go up on the roof and just sit down. I'll lay my head back and take in the "fresh" air and then I'll play my guitar.

Maybe it has to do with the close quarters, and crowds in the ER that makes me that way. That when I'm off from work i just want to be able to stretch out.

[locked from everyone]
Only way I want to be inside is if it's me and Neela, and she's in my arms. Where we can watch a movie and relax. I don't want to push her, but maybe it's time I ask her out again?
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Topic 18

October 15th, 2006 (08:30 pm)

Am I selfish? I'd like to seriously think I'm not. I mean I try not to be if anything just not sure if I succeed or not. Then again all a man can do really is try right?

Though if you ask my former band mates they will say I am selfish. Why? Mainly because I couldn't choose the band fully over my want to help people and be a doctor. So as I worked to get time off they were sitting there voting to boot me out. I guess in the end if you really want to look at it, they were the selfish ones. Expecting me to give all of my time to them and forget I spend a ton of money on a medical degree. To forget those people that come into the ER that need help and need someone to take care of them. One of them once told me I was wasting my time in medicine and that I made a better musician. I'd prefer to think that's not true and that I'm at best a decent doctor.

Maybe we both are right but right now? I can't see how I was really selfish to want to be a doctor and to desire to try and help people.


Dr. Ray Barnett
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Elite Muses App

October 7th, 2006 (07:11 pm)

Describe a dream you had as a child that has stayed with you.

I used to have this weird dream I was up on stage. There were fans screaming my name and that of my band. I remember that feeling was an absolute rush and it made me want to be a rock star. Some wonder why I chose to even attend medical school the answer to that is simple, I wanted to help people. Musician is all well and good but the best careers are short and end in a few hits or death, I'm more of a realist and knew I needed a better plan for life. I don't regret for a moment where my life has taken me. It may not be the rush of a crowd screaming my name but it's something so much better. The rush of saving someones life, of seeing those happy faces of their loved ones. It's there gratitude, it's better then selling out stadiums any day.

I love my job even if it gets hectic, it's still a thrill and the best reward one can ask for.

Dr. Ray Barnett
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If you could change one thing in history, what would it be and why?

When I was younger I know I definitely would have said that I'd go back in time and make it so I became a big rock star. Now in this juncture of my life I can honestly say I wouldn't change a thing. Where my life has taken me is where I feel I belong. I have the chance to make a real difference. I've met the most amazing people and some of my best friends like Neela. Who knows if I had only focused on music if I would have ever met these people. Maybe my band was right I lost focus but I don't think so. My focus just shifted and I knew I wanted to do something meaningful with my life. Make a difference to someone and what better way to do that then saving lives right? I still play my guitar but it's not the screaming of fans that gives me a thrill, it's the sounds of the ER. The sounds of lives saved and sadly lives lost, but never without valiant effort to save them. I've learned you can't save them all.

Dr. Ray Barnett
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